tag:dreamwidth.org,2010-03-20:490092 genlisae genlisae 2013-03-06T02:09:17Z tag:dreamwidth.org,2010-03-20:490092:250124 2013-03-06T02:04:55Z 2013-03-06T02:09:17Z sick public 0 I have exhausted my list of things I have the mental capacity to focus on to stave off boredom. I can't even seem to focus on colouring in a colouring book right now and yet the &quot;everything else&quot; is not engaging enough to offset the boredom setting in. In a weird place. Only so much staring blankly into space thinking 'I really don't feel well' a person can take.<br /><br />Thing is, I really don't feel well. My stomach has picked up exactly where it left off for the start of round 4 of chemo. The slice of toast I ate this morning set my stomach to churning and even small sips of water soon end up in dry heaving. I made it through the last two days mostly by sleeping, only I'm not tired anymore. Tried watching a movie (several actually) and sooner or later I realize I&nbsp;have zoned out and now have no idea what is going on anymore. So, I stare off into space and think 'I really don't feel well'.<br /><br />Maybe part of it is the waiting for the results tomorrow? Could be. I&nbsp;am not sure. I&nbsp;seem to be kind of numb about the whole thing overall.<br /><br />Very strange place I am in right now.<br /><br />On the other hand, typing this has used up a few minutes so that is good I&nbsp;suppose.<br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=genlisae&ditemid=250124" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> comments