I have mint burns on my tongue, cracked a tooth "over enthusiastically" chewing gum and the electronic cigarettes with no nicotine just don't damn well work. Not even a little bit.
It isn't a matter of not knowing it is better for me, at this point it is a matter of I really just don't give a damn.
There is this moment on the first drag of a cigarette, especially that fist smoke of the day, that is like a little hint of Utopia. The smoke rolls smooth past your tongue, there is the "kick" in the back of your throat as it passes and then bliss as it hits your lungs and you can feel it spread out, tingling along your veins. Following that tingling is a wave of perfect, peaceful calm. You become completely unshakable, the building could explode around you and it would be okay. You could handle it. Dealing with it would be trivial.
Right now I need that calm and am getting progressively more pissed at the people telling me I can't have it. I am not dealing well, not at all. I am a jittery, anxious mess.
So no, I haven't made any progress with my game, it is the least of my priorities right now.
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Date: 2012-02-28 07:11 pm (UTC)I have mint burns on my tongue, cracked a tooth "over enthusiastically" chewing gum and the electronic cigarettes with no nicotine just don't damn well work. Not even a little bit.
It isn't a matter of not knowing it is better for me, at this point it is a matter of I really just don't give a damn.
There is this moment on the first drag of a cigarette, especially that fist smoke of the day, that is like a little hint of Utopia. The smoke rolls smooth past your tongue, there is the "kick" in the back of your throat as it passes and then bliss as it hits your lungs and you can feel it spread out, tingling along your veins. Following that tingling is a wave of perfect, peaceful calm. You become completely unshakable, the building could explode around you and it would be okay. You could handle it. Dealing with it would be trivial.
Right now I need that calm and am getting progressively more pissed at the people telling me I can't have it. I am not dealing well, not at all. I am a jittery, anxious mess.
So no, I haven't made any progress with my game, it is the least of my priorities right now.